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Motivation

I’ve noticed that as soon as I conquer one problem another arises. It’s like everytime I turn around there is something else I have to juggle. I have no idea why life is like this. No one informed me that this is what being an adult meant.

I mean I know I can handle it but it’s incredibly difficult. It’s like I’m never going to get a break. I hope it gets easier eventually. I hope that at some point I’ll be able to approach a new situation with grace and wisdom. But until that day, I’m stuck pushing through all that I have on my plate right now.

Luckily my faithful friends are here to help me through this realization process. It’s definitely a struggle that I’m willing to overcome. I will not take no for an answer. I’m not going to sit back and watch life pass me by any longer. And just because my parents are forcing me out of the house does not mean that I should fear the big bad world out there. In fact I welcome it and it’s hardships. I wouldn’t be the strong woman I am today if my family hadn’t toughened me up.

So enough complaining. It’s time to get some shit done.

Over-thinking

I do it sooooo much. Anybody have any tips on how to get rid of it?

I feel like I surround myself with it and create a stressful environment. I get so worked up about everything. I think half of it is the whole ADHD thing. I get so worked up and then before I know it my mind is going a hundred miles an hour and I can’t keep up. I can’t calm down.

I suppose here pretty soon I’ll be on medication for it but for now it’s a little difficult. I don’t like being completely AAAAAAHHHHH all the time. Plus it kinda sucks that my mind doesn’t work the way I want it to. I want to be chill and I will do what I have to to get to that point but why cant I just train myself to be that way? I just want to be normal for once and not have to rely on medication to take care of how I act? But if these past 6 months have taught me anything, it’s that I’m impulsive and I am always hyperactive and I can’t be chill like I want to until I take a stupid pill. WHY???

It’s so frustrating that I have to take it to be who I want to be. It just makes me feel like I have a certain time span to be normal and then outside of that I’m a different person that people wont understand. How is that living? I mean really?

I have a feeling not a lot of people will read this. My musings really aren’t that important but if anyone so chooses to continue reading, I appreciate you caring enough to make it to the end. 

If you have any encouraging advice, leave me a comment. Otherwise, I will continue to update my tumblr followers on how I’m dealing with the matter.